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Sunday, February 28, 2010

Infertility, adoption, and kiddos (part 7)

If you'd like a refresher or just need to catch up, go HERE, HERE, HERE , HERE ,HERE and HERE. It might take you some time, but no need to hurry! We're not going anywhere...

So now I was feeling better from the progesterone leaving my body, but starting to get very uncomfortable from the pregnancy. I won't go into all of the details, but let's just say that I'm a fairly small person. And pregnancy was just not good for my body.

Side note: When I was 6 months pregnant we lost my Dad. It was one of the hardest moments in my pregnancy...knowing that he wouldn't get to see or hold my child. It's amazing now how much of him I see in JMonster.

Unlike most of the world, I went into labor ON my due date. I delivered the next day, March 15th, after laboring for 16 or 17 hours but only pushing for 14 minutes.
Here I am, in labor, and you can see my "coach" The Rev in the back.
Think he was a help?
(Okay, he was. A huge one I might add.)

JMonster was born at 2:14pm on March 15th, 2006. He had been in distress during the last part of labor (they threatened me with a vacuum...I wouldn't have it) and it was about 45 minutes before I got to hold him. He was crying on the other side of the delivery room, but when I said his name he stopped crying and actually tried to look around for me. I will never forget that. A newborn trying to raise his head and look with goopy eyes for someone he's never seen, just heard. Awwww...a momma's joy.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Perfect Pairings

Psalm 28:7

7 The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.

Psalm 31:14

14 But I trust in you, O LORD; I say, "You are my God."

Friday, February 26, 2010

Things That Make Me Go Hmmm...

Here is a small list of things that make me wonder about the human race...
1. Computers...
2. People with no ability to filter themselves. You know what I mean.
3. People who still act like they are in high school 20 years later.
4. Stupid humor.
5. People who don't wash their hands after using the restroom...especially a PUBLIC restroom!
6. Why God made people with such extreme differences...some with no fuse and some with a huge fuse.
7. Why God allows children to die.
8. While we're on what God allows...why He allows some people, who really SHOULDN'T, to get pregnant while they don't want to while others (okay, maybe I'm talking about me) who would love to and do a decent job at parenting, can't. I'm just saying...
9. The extreme jump to using procedures like lap-band to lose weight. Billboards EVERYWHERE. Eat less and exercise more people! It'll save you tons of money.
10. The government. Especially right now. Concerning healthcare. Really?!?

What things make YOU go hmmm?

Thursday, February 25, 2010


It's that time of year. The preschool has handed out the registration packets for next year...and they want the packets (could they be 50 pages?), a check for registration, a check for school supplies for next year, and a check for May 2011 tuition.

Decisions, decisions...

OH, and I thought I wanted JMonster to go 3 days again next year, but 4 year olds MUST go 4 days. No 3 day classes. I can send him to the 4 day program and just not send him on Mondays, but is that fair to him?

So it all comes down to this: I've always wanted to home-school JMonster. Preschool has been a way to socialize him in a non-threatening way. It's been a way to deal with some of the issues that go with Sensory Integration Dysfunction (although we didn't know what it was when we initially made the decision to send him...just that he NEEDED it.) But eventually we have always intended to keep him at home for his education.

The Rev and I think (deep breath) that we will NOT be sending JMonster to preschool next year. We talked with him about it and he wants to stay home. He would rather do gymnastics, ice skating, music classes, etc (which are not in the budget with the cost of preschool)...although he says he will be sad and miss it, but not so much that he wants to go back.

Preschool has been wonderful for helping JMonster with SID. It helped us get his diagnosis in the first place! I pray that this decision won't be one I regret for him.

If I do, at least it's just preschool.

How much can I screw up a 4 year old? ;o)

Does anyone with a child with SID have any suggestions? Input? I'm all ears!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Infertility, adoption, and kiddos (part 6)

If you'd like a refresher or just need to catch up, go HERE, HERE, HERE , HERE and HERE. Go ahead. Take your time! We'll wait...

When we left off last the doc had transferred 2 embryos, it was June of 2005, and we were waiting. And waiting. And waiting.

While you wait you have to lie down. And not lift anything over 5 pounds.


After a couple weeks of shots my hiney started to get red. And swell. I told the nurse during one of my appointments and she said, "That sometimes happens."

"Like this?" And I showed her my backside.

"Ohhh...I think I need to get the doctor..."

I was allergic. To the shots. Actually, to the sesame seed oil that was the base for the shots. And it made a grapefruit size knot on my backside that was red. Like a tomato.

They stopped those shots. :o)

And gave me pills. :o(

BUT WE WERE PREGNANT! The nurse called and told me that my numbers were on the low side, but that we were definitely pregnant.

I have to admit, I was a bit sad. I'd hoped for twins. Both of my sisters had gotten pregnant with twins...why not me?

That lasted about 2 days.

Then I got sick. Horribly ill from the progesterone pills. They wanted my levels to be over 20...I was over 200. And couldn't get off the couch.

They stayed that way until August birthday. The nurse called and told me we could discontinue the progesterone. I sobbed with thanks. Literally sobbed. I'd been so miserable I couldn't think of a better birthday present!

I felt better within a day.

If only it had lasted...

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Happiness Award...

So, I'm finally getting around to giving this award back out. I think I'm supposed to list 10 things I love...she here goes my list without further ado (and not in any particular order, other than the first really is number one in my book!):

1. Jesus. Enough said. :o)
2. The Rev. He's the bestest friend anyone could have...and he's MINE!
3. JMonster. Who wouldn't love that cutie?
4. ALL of my family! Especially my sisters...and my nieces and nephews...okay...EVERYONE!
5. Snow!
6. Reading!
7. Ice cream!!!
8. Yummy smells...especially sandalwood, Bath & Body Works Black Amethyst, Gardenia, Quelques Fleurs.
9. Fun music I can sing out loud to.

And those I'm passing it along to:
1. My friend Pamela at Lyme is Crazy...she hangs in there even when life is way tough.
2. Em at Life, Liberty, and The Pursuit...she makes me laugh...and I don't even know her IRL!

Short list, I know. I have lost touch with a lot of blogs I used to read but these are two of the very few I still do...and most of the others wouldn't do this sort of thing. :o)

SO there you have it (Happy, Baloney?)! A list of things that make Swizz happy...

Monday, February 22, 2010

Pics from our Ski Trip

JMonster in Ski School

A in Ski School

Flower in Ski School


The "Fab Four" first day of skiing!
The Rev, Swizz, The Doc, and M
(Note my swollen face...)

The Rev and JMonster tubing on the last day.
The Rev is running about 102' fever in this pic...

Swizz hauling JMonster up the bunny hill, in the tube...

A helping me haul JMonster up the bunny hill...

Flower pulling a tube up the hill...

E...mind you this is her first day of not running a huge fever.
She went to ski school AND went tubing.
What a trooper!


Sunday, February 21, 2010

Random Questions

For Olympic Lovers:

What is your favorite WINTER Olympic Sport?
What is your least favorite WINTER Olympic Sport?
And WHY!?!

I can't wait to read your answers!

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Perfect Pairings

"Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy;
no shadow of shame will darken their faces."
Psalm 34:5 (NLT)

Tuesday, February 16, 2010


Growing up high mass Episcopalian, my thoughts on Lent go like this:

"What am I going to give up THIS year?"

"Does Sunday really count as a day off?"

"Can I REALLY give up chocolate for 40 days?"

Until I heard a sermon, in the PRESBYTERIAN church, that now has me thinking:

"Am I going to give up, or ADD something, for Lent this year?"

"Does Sunday really count as a day off?"

"Hmmm...ditch chocolate? Nah."

Do YOU practice the art of sacrifice during Lent?

Do you add or give up something that brings you closer to Christ?

What will your Lent look like this year?

Me, I'm still thinking.

Reading in my Bible every day, even if it's just a few minutes, is the thought that sticks out above all the others right now.

I can always fall back on giving up chocolate. ;o)

Monday, February 15, 2010


One Year Ago TODAY I started Swizz's Daily Diatribe!
There have been times during the past year when I've blogged daily.

There have been times during the past year when I've gone for weeks without blogging.

Throughout the past year I've had a handful of faithful readers. Faithful Commentators.


And I hope you enjoy what you've read so far and want to keep coming back.

Even if you don't...I'll still be here spouting off my version of the truth.

And possibly sharing just a little. too. much. information. ;o)

Sunday, February 14, 2010


My friend Baloney passed along this award. Thanks Baloney! When I'm not distracted by the Olympics and amazing skiing and skating I'll pass this along. Just know how much it means to me!

Friday, February 12, 2010

Ski Vacation 2010

I've written 3 different versions of our vacation. Guess in the comments which is correct and those people who guess correctly will be allowed to come up with a future "Random Question"! Good luck guessing!

Wow, what a trip! It all started with our planning...things couldn't have gone more perfect. We found all of the equipment and clothing we needed at a fraction of the cost. AND the kiddos helped pay for theirs out of the savings each of them have from their allowances.

Both cars were checked out, front to back, top to bottom, and deemed safe and in great shape for the drives. Tires were filled and tanks were topped off!

We packed both cars the night before we left. It all fit, with room to spare! We were even able to pack the kids homework and extra reading materials.

The day we left was gorgeous. We picked up the twins at school (they had to stay until 10am to be counted present) and hit the road. We sang, played car games, and generally had a blast all the way to Dumas, where we stayed in a fabulous NEW hotel for the night. The reservationist felt so bad they got our reservation wrong (but fixed it!) that they gave us our second room for free. In the morning we had one of the best continental breakfasts you've ever seen at a hotel...for FREE!!

Our second day of driving was just amazing! It was only a few hours from Dumas to Red River and the scenery was fabulous. Snow, trees, and lots of wildlife! The kids identified deer, sheep, antelope and all kinds of horses and cows. They even asked to do their homework!

When we got into town we picked up skis and equipment at a local shop. They were glad to see us and gave us a HUGE discount...they love Aggies!

We skied for 3 days and the kiddos took ski school. The instructors even asked if we are from the area...they wanted the kids to join their ski team! It's amazing how quickly young children can pick up on something when given the right opportunities. The pictures they took of the kids have been framed and are now hanging in the ski lodge...the kids look like little models!

Our last day of skiing we went tubing on the mountain. They have a fabulous lift to pull the tube up the mountain for you as you hang on. Very little work and tons of fun!

We drove back the entire way from Red River to College Station and made it in record time. The children were the best behaved they have been, we ate healthy foods, and were in bed at our regular times.


Not quite sure what to think of our trip! It all started with our planning...things went okay. We found most of the equipment and clothing we needed, but it was fairly expensive. We borrowed a few things, but for the most part we paid top dollar for what we needed.

Both cars were checked out, front to back, top to bottom, and ours needed minor work. It seems that every time we turn around we are in need of huge repairs and this time, at least, it was reasonable.

We packed both cars the morning we left. It didn't all fit so we had to rearrange quite a few times. In the end we were able to fit most things we wanted to take, but some of the extras that we would have enjoyed had to be left behind. At least we didn't have to use the turtle on top!

The day we left was nice and rainy. We picked up the twins at school (they had to stay until 10am to be counted present) and hit the road. The kids watched movies , argued, played video games, and argued some more all the way to Dumas, where we stayed in a fabulous NEW hotel for the night. The reservationist got our reservation wrong (but fixed it!) and it was still wrong when we got there. In the morning we had one of the best continental breakfasts you've ever seen at a hotel...although the coffee tasted like burned water.

Our second day of driving was the same boring as the first. It was only a few hours from Dumas to Red River, but the kids argued over which movie to watch and who could play the video games the entire drive. There were snow, trees, and lots of wildlife, but it was hard to see through the fog and steamy road. We were glad the drive was over when we got there.

When we got into town we picked up skis and equipment at a local shop. A friend had told us we should go to a certain shop and they would give us a discount...we did and they didn't. Oh well.

We skied for 3 days and the kiddos took ski school. The instructors were decent to the kids, although they watched quite a few movies and let them go inside the first time they said they were cold. It was expensive, but what about skiing isn't?

Our last day of skiing we went tubing on the mountain. The tubing was fun, but the tubes weighed about 1,000 pounds and you had to pull them all the way up the hill each time. The kids loved it the first few times but ran out of steam early on. Once again, an expensive endeavor that wasn't a complete washout but wasn't quite the fun we thought it would be.

We drove back the entire way from Red River to College Station. It had snowed the night before so it took several hours longer than we had anticipated. We were all crabby and tired when we climbed into bed just after midnight.

SKI TRIP 2010 to RED RIVER...Maybe do it again in 3 or 4 years?

Wow, what a trip! (And NOT in a good way, mind you.) It all started with our planning...we begged borrowed and begged some more. We ended up getting some of what we needed, but not until the last minute.

Both cars were checked out, front to back, top to bottom, and ours ended up needing major repairs. Major. And I didn't even get to get the tires much for trying to make our trip safe for everyone!

We packed both cars the afternoon we left. With all of our planning, we hadn't planned for The Doc to end up in the ER the morning we were to leave. Or that he wouldn't be able to help us pack and load. Two women arranging and rearranging...

The day we left was rainy and wet. We picked up the twins at school (they had to stay until 10am to be counted present) and hit the road several hours after we had planned. We struggled through fog and rain all the way to Dumas, where we stayed in a fabulous NEW hotel for the night. The reservations were wrong, we called and had them fixed. When we got there they were STILL wrong. And to top it off Flower vomited all over herself in the car just before we got there. Despite the fact that it was a new hotel, the showers leaked and the heaters ran out of control. In the morning we did have one of the best continental breakfasts you've ever seen at a hotel...although the coffee was definitely not Starbucks!!

Our second day of driving almost didn't happen! While we were reloading the car the kiddos played in the snow. As we got in the cars E vomited. A second kiddo with the pukies. It was only a few hours from Dumas to Red River and the scenery was fabulous. Snow, trees, and lots of wildlife! But when we stopped just outside of the passes leading into Red River the locals told us we would need snow tires or chains on our way out...we didn't have either!

When we got into town we had planned to pick up skis and equipment at a local shop. We went to the condo first, though, and found out when we got there that E was running a huge temp. The FLU.

The Doc drove to Taos our first day of skiing to get Tamiflu. It's over 30 miles away and he had to go to more than one pharmacy to get enough of the med.

We picked up equipment and dropped off the other 3 kiddos at ski school. They only take 4 years and up so we had to lie about JMonster's age. We prepped him that they might ask and he was to tell them 4. First question they asked was, "How old are you little man?" "THREE." Oops...we then had to lie some more. I hate to lie.

We didn't take the kiddos to ski school the second day. Too expensive. Also, The Rev started feeling bad our second day of skiing. He skied a few hours, but ended up back at the condo with E. The three of us skied the rest of the afternoon...

Our last day of skiing we really wanted the kiddos to go to ski school. It's the only way to get any decent skiing in for the adults. The Doc and The Rev didn't want to spend the money, though, so M and I went down to the ski school to try and make a deal. The sweet woman in charge let us take all 4 kiddos in for an entire day of ski school for FREE! Lunch and all! That's about $250 worth for nothing. (It only took a few tears on each of our parts...tears we didn't plan but that happened because the trip had been so tough.) We called The Doc and The Rev to have them bring the kiddos up to the ski school...they were stuck. They couldn't get the car up the front drive because of the ice! The sweet women at the ski school ended up calling a shuttle to pick them up and they arrived about an hour later.

The adults went skiing together, but after one run The Rev felt horrible and he and The Doc ended up driving into town to get snow chains. Ouch! Who knew how much those flimsy little things could cost?

That afternoon we went tubing on the mountain. It was a ton of fun, but the kiddos got tired walking up the hill so we ended up pulling them most of the time! All in all, very enjoyable, though.

We drove back the entire way from Red River to College Station and it took 17+ hours instead of 13+ hours. It had snowed the night before and both passes were covered in ice and snow. Beautiful, but we could only drive 30mph at the fastest. The children were so tired by now that they just watched movies and played their video games. Not much fussing. We were home and in bed by 2am.

SKI TRIP 2010 to RED RIVER ...a Bust or a Blast? Both!!!

Pics to follow...

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

The Orangutan and the Hound

Click on the picture and it will take you to an adorable video of these two friends.

I promise to post about our ski trip in the next day or will be well worth the wait!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Fun Vacation Quiz

Since we are heading out to go skiing I thought I'd take a vacation quiz to see if we're making the right choice. :o)

Vacation Quiz

WARNING: If you take this quiz they will ask for your info. Navigate away from the page and they will give you your results without needing to input any info. HAVE FUN!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Random Questions

Because I have a lot of them...


I can't wait to read your answers!

Monday, February 1, 2010

Traveling with Food Allergies

I try not to make a big deal about JMonster's food allergies. It is what it is. But there are times when I panic...not huge run around and flap my arms kind of panic, but internal make my stomach feel in knots kind of panic. The kind that has you awake in the middle of the night thinking about how, what, where...

We are heading out on a family ski trip. To a ski resort in a very small town. JMonster will be in ski school while The Rev and I ski. (deep relaxing hyperventilating...)

I'm panicking.

How should I handle this? Will they for sure allow him to be in ski school? They provide it typically pb&j? We'll bring most of our food with us but if everyone else is eating peanut butter... We'll leave them his Benadryl and epi-pens. But, what if?

I try not to live in the land of what ifs. I try and trust that he is going to be okay.

He will be okay.

But a small part of me is still panicking. Just a little.

Missional Monday

As most of you probably know adoption is a topic near and dear to my heart. I've always wanted to adopt, and one day I pray that this desire will be fulfilled.

Dave Thomas Foundation for Adoption is a national nonprofit 501(c)3 public charity dedicated to dramatically increasing the adoptions of the more than 150,000 children waiting in North America's foster care systems. Created by Wendy's founder, Dave Thomas, who was adopted as a child, the Foundation implements results-driven national signature programs, foster care adoption awareness initiatives and research-based advocacy efforts. As the only foundation dedicated exclusively to foster care adoption, we are driven by Dave's simple value: Do what's best for the child.
Please take some time and check out this wonderful organization on their website! See if their mission can help you match your passion with your purpose.