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Tuesday, December 20, 2011

And the wait is over.

Negative beta.

I got the call this afternoon.

The girl called me "sweetie" when she asked for me.

They only use the term sweetie when they have bad news.

And it was bad.

And I cried.

And felt confused.

And cried some more.

And wondered why?

And wondered why not?

And cried just a little more.

But my tears are all gone, and I'm going to be okay.

I really will!

Because I still believe God has plans for expanding our family.

I still don't know how.  

Or when.

But I believe.

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7 comments:

Ash said...

Oh love. Words of proper comfort escape me, but I believe in my soul that you're correct, the Man always has plans. Always.

Love, Ash

Kerri C Bobbett said...

My mom always used to tell me God keeps all of our tears in a bottle. Not one escapes Him. Cry all you need to. And then forge ahead in victory. You are a valiant woman, if there ever was one. :) Much love to you.

backwoods conservative said...

Sorry to hear it. I was so hoping it would work out for you.

In the years since I went online I've become good friends with a lot of people I've never met and probably never will, and you're one of the best. I just wish there was some way I could fix it for you and make the hurt go away.

daflowers said...

Love and prayers continue to flow your way. May the spirit of the season and the joy of the holidays fill you with God's presence and comfort.
We love you more than words can express.
God bless, daflowers & tbf

Swizz said...

All of you have made a rough time worthwhile.
Did I say worthwhile?
Yep.
Did I mean it?
Yep.

God has shown me, through you and through all of my friends and family, just how much love there is in this great big world! We are blessed beyond measure!

Thank you for supporting me and loving me.
It means the world.

Dustin said...

If you're anything like your brother, you will never give in.

I'm sure these procedures are not easy, in many respects, but it's not over until you agree it's over.

I'm sorry for the bad news.

MD in Philly said...

We are told to rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. We rejoiced with you before, we share (in a very small measure) with your disappointment now. May the Lord make His comfort very real to you.