And the wait is over.

Negative beta.

I got the call this afternoon.

The girl called me "sweetie" when she asked for me.

They only use the term sweetie when they have bad news.

And it was bad.

And I cried.

And felt confused.

And cried some more.

And wondered why?

And wondered why not?

And cried just a little more.

But my tears are all gone, and I'm going to be okay.

I really will!

Because I still believe God has plans for expanding our family.

I still don't know how.  

Or when.

But I believe.

(ALL RIGHT FOLKS, IF YOU'RE HERE...YOU MIGHT AS WELL CATCH UP ON THE WHOLE STORY!  GO HERE AND START FROM THE BEGINNING!)

Still waiting...Kind of

I had the big stick this morning.

Yep, they drew blood.

And then I peed on a stick.

Shouldn't have done it.

Big Fat Negative.

:o(

I cried for about 30 minutes in my closet.

Then I dried my tears and came out.

Cuz, it Doesn't mean all is lost.

I still trust a big God!

And I still could be pregnant.

Read Jeremiah 29:11.

GO HERE FOR OVER.

Blood Test Monday!

So tomorrow is the big day!

Monday, December 19th, 2011...

The big blood draw.

Beta HCG.

And then a wait.

A LONG wait.

(okay, okay...it probably won't really be long.  it'll just feel like infinity plus 1!)

Keep those prayers coming!

So far it appears that there may be at least one bun in the oven!

GO HERE FOR WAITING!

Oh Cramps!

Today is one of those days in infertility you try and forget.

I've had cramps.

Not just minor ones, but "oh my!  that doesn't feel good!" cramps.

So I drank a glass of wine (or 2!) to help relax the ol' uterus.

And am praying.

And asking for your prayers!

We really, really want this last round of ivf to work.

SO stick, babies, stick!

Your family really wants to meet you!

GO HERE FOR BLOOD TEST!

Obsessing...

It's only been 3 days.

3 very long days.

And I am obsessing!

Searching the internet for early signs of pregnancy.

(Trying to see if I have any of them.) 

Every twinge.

Every ache.

Every...

It is going to be a very, very long 2 week wait.

Except...I am PREGNANT WITH HOPE!

GO HERE FOR OH CRAMPS!

Meet the Twins!

MEET THE TWINS!

Okay, so technically they are embryos.

And technically I'm not pregnant, yet.

But I figured out a way to show you who they transferred into me yesterday!

Keep praying!

I'll keep resting...

GO HERE FOR OBSESSING!

And the two week wait begins!

Today two beautiful embryos were transferred into "my belly", as JMonster says.

December 19th they will do a blood draw to test my beta HCG levels.

A day or two later we will know whether they "stuck"!

We are praying!

We are hopeful!

Won't you please pray for us, too?

(I have a wonderful picture of the embryos...however I have no scanner here in Dallas.  Will post it when I can!)

GO HERE FOR THE NEXT PART